Ever since high school, I have felt a big pull towards participating in some discipleship program—whether it is a year long or semester long thing. I was looking into a program for right after I graduated from high school, but I didn’t like the idea of skipping out on my first year of college when all my other classmates would be experiencing it and I wouldn’t. Ever since then though, I keep getting that pull on my heart to do a similar program like that.
Last Monday night (March 8), I was doing my devotions and I just started realizing how tightly I am holding on to my life. It isn’t my life anyways...it is God’s life…He is just letting me live it out! As you might know, I have been worrying a lot about my next year of life...wondering if I am meant to be at IWU, if I am studying the right thing, etc.. So that Monday night I just decided to finally give it ALL over to God. And so I stupidly said—well it’s not stupid, just watch out what you say to God!haha— (I have it written in my journal..) that I WANT / DESIRE to surrender my family, my friends, my school, my love life, and so on....ANYTHING and EVERYTHING that I can possibly give to God!
Tuesday came around and I felt the pull again about giving up a semester or year for God. I thought it must be God "testing" me or something to see if I really was giving it ALL up this time. I told God that if it was His will for me, I would do it. My life IS His life. So I told Him, “Ok God, I will do it IF AND ONLY IF you send someone personally to me that mentions something about doing a specific program.”
WELLLLLL I didn’t realize that when you finally give something to God, He sometimes gets excited and acts quickly!! Haha. On Wednesday, I was talking to Brian (our youth pastor at Westview Wesleyan Church in Jonesoro, IN, who graduated from IWU last year) about his experience at YWAM during his experience at IWU. He then mentioned to me about The World Race and said it would definitely be something cool for me to look in to. I didn't tell him all that was going on with me and God during the previous days, but as I walked out of the house that evening I had that gut feeling that God was about to do something CRAZY in my life...I just didn't know what! :)
To quickly give you an idea of what The World Race is, it is pretty much a missions trip where you go to 11 countries in 11 months…backpacking it up, living amongst the poor and loving on them! :) If you would like to know more about The World Race, CLICK HERE !
Anyways, Long story short…I ended up filling out an application that night (HAHA!) and I had a phone interview this past Tuesday (March 16) that went insanely well!! Crazy, I know?!! Ahhh, tell me about it!! Haha :)
Last Monday night (March 8), I was doing my devotions and I just started realizing how tightly I am holding on to my life. It isn’t my life anyways...it is God’s life…He is just letting me live it out! As you might know, I have been worrying a lot about my next year of life...wondering if I am meant to be at IWU, if I am studying the right thing, etc.. So that Monday night I just decided to finally give it ALL over to God. And so I stupidly said—well it’s not stupid, just watch out what you say to God!haha— (I have it written in my journal..) that I WANT / DESIRE to surrender my family, my friends, my school, my love life, and so on....ANYTHING and EVERYTHING that I can possibly give to God!
Tuesday came around and I felt the pull again about giving up a semester or year for God. I thought it must be God "testing" me or something to see if I really was giving it ALL up this time. I told God that if it was His will for me, I would do it. My life IS His life. So I told Him, “Ok God, I will do it IF AND ONLY IF you send someone personally to me that mentions something about doing a specific program.”
WELLLLLL I didn’t realize that when you finally give something to God, He sometimes gets excited and acts quickly!! Haha. On Wednesday, I was talking to Brian (our youth pastor at Westview Wesleyan Church in Jonesoro, IN, who graduated from IWU last year) about his experience at YWAM during his experience at IWU. He then mentioned to me about The World Race and said it would definitely be something cool for me to look in to. I didn't tell him all that was going on with me and God during the previous days, but as I walked out of the house that evening I had that gut feeling that God was about to do something CRAZY in my life...I just didn't know what! :)
To quickly give you an idea of what The World Race is, it is pretty much a missions trip where you go to 11 countries in 11 months…backpacking it up, living amongst the poor and loving on them! :) If you would like to know more about The World Race, CLICK HERE !
Anyways, Long story short…I ended up filling out an application that night (HAHA!) and I had a phone interview this past Tuesday (March 16) that went insanely well!! Crazy, I know?!! Ahhh, tell me about it!! Haha :)
And the recent news is that I received a phone call yesterday (March 18) letting me know that I am accepted!!! Woah, tell me about it! I plan on leaving on the September Race and will not be home until the end of next July. Yes, I do understand very well that this means that I will be giving up my real senior year of college, and yada yada, there is a ton of other things I understand I will be giving up, but I know all will be OK. God is in control! And I am soooo excited about this opportunity!!!
I am trying to figure out some class schedules right now, but my professors are joyfully working with me and I think it will all work out fine for me to graduate in a year when I return to IWU the next year. EEEK, God is so good and so crazy at the same time!! haha.
I have been so emotional this past week with all that has been going on, but I am just so insanely excited!!! I have not felt this much PEACE in such a long long time! It feels so great to be at the center of God's will for my life.
I am trying to figure out some class schedules right now, but my professors are joyfully working with me and I think it will all work out fine for me to graduate in a year when I return to IWU the next year. EEEK, God is so good and so crazy at the same time!! haha.
I have been so emotional this past week with all that has been going on, but I am just so insanely excited!!! I have not felt this much PEACE in such a long long time! It feels so great to be at the center of God's will for my life.
When I get more information, I will let you know. I just wanted to keep you updated with all that is going on in my crazy adventurous life!
In God's Hands,
Carmen
1 comment:
So crazy! Sounds so incredible! What an adventure life is and crazy how quickly God works everything together. What a way to express the greatness of our God! So excited for you!!!
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