Jealousy...why?

As I was sitting in Starbucks Sunday morning… Actually, let me give you a little background to this story….

I haven’t really had many problems since I have been home from New Zealand/Australia. Minus a little sickness on the way home. Yes, everyone on the plane was sleeping while I was up the entire night coughing my lungs out. No worries though, I had the privilege of seeing some cool lightning storms over the US and of course the beautiful sunrise while everyone else had their eyes closed and missed God’s beauty displayed in the sky that morning. :) I also had no voice for a few days after my return but I found that a blessing as well as I had that time to reflect by myself…it also gave me an excuse to just shut up.
I was also doing pretty well with the whole jet lag thing until Saturday night. I was awakened at 3am…WIDE awake! To make a long story short, I ended up at Starbucks and that is where I will continue my story.. :)

As I was sitting in Starbucks Sunday morning, I was accompanied by my journal (& purple pen :) ), my Bible and a grande raspberry white chocolate mocha, my fav. It was a delightful morning to spend those few hours with my Lord before heading to church.
As I was sitting there listening to numerous people ordering their really complicated drinks for themselves, I also heard the Lord’s still small voice. Jealousy was just something that kept playing over and over in my head. One of my fellow team members has just graduated from college. While we were in New Zealand, a lot of people have been giving her information about getting a job and teaching in New Zealand. What an amazing opportunity! But I have sadly found myself becoming really jealous of her and the attention she was getting for this. I wanted to be the one that everyone was trying to get to come over. I wanted to be the one with the amazing opportunity laying out in front of me. I found this really getting in the way of me and supporting her and encouraging her the way that I really needed to.
But I have to ask myself, why am I getting jealous of the plans of other people when the Lord has promised that He has those special plans for me as well?!
I am getting jealous of the awesome plans God has for other people when He is just laughing at my lack of patience. In His own time, His plans for my own life will be revealed. Besides, Amy’s plans (whether it is this job in NZ or wherever) are designed for her specifically. Yes they might fit me, but they won’t be that exact and perfect fit.
Ladies, you might can relate to this one haha…quoted directly from my journal…”For instance, you might find a dress that “works”, but you definitely realize a difference when you put on “The Dress”.” Haha hopefully that was understandable.
It is just frustrating to realize that I still have 2 years of school left...and she even has the opportunity to go teach in another country. Patience, Carmen, Patience.

Psalm 37:23~
“The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives.”